A River Sings | 01 22 21 | Rachel Ida Buff

Rachel Ida Buff
Pandemic Winter

The unhoused man who comes to our door,
Asking for money for food, for bus fare, or rent, when he has a place
Annoys my husband. “If you give him things,
He’ll just come back,” he says.

It’s cold outside today, the virus is surging, I have no cash.
Like some unhinged sovereign in a well-warmed castle, I wave the man away.
An Amazon van stops, motor idling. The driver jumps out,
Clutching some gift for us. The two men pass on our stoop.

In my study, the cat wakes and purrs onto my lap.
When a neighbor first brought her to our door,
We let her in, fed her. After that, she went out but
Always circled back, became part of the household.

Gift exchanges and cat-shaped dents on pillows: rings of love,
Of kin. Outside them are well-buttressed walls, locks on the doors.
Though we call each other by name, I never invite the unhoused man inside.
We talk, I thrust him cash or outerwear, I turn away.

Last year the cops shot a different unhoused man, asleep
In a nearby bank lobby. He had a weapon,
They said. I imagined Franklin, the man I know,
Curled around a baseball bat, dreaming his own protected enclave.

—Submitted on 01/11/2021 to the erstwhile Poems in the Afterglow series

Rachel Ida Buff is the author of A is for Asylum Seeker: Words for People on the Move / A de Asilo: Palabras para Personas en Movimiento (Fordham, 2020), with Spanish translation by Alejandra Oliva. Her poetry and prose have appeared in The NationAeonThe Southern ReviewThe Minnesota Review, Jewish Currents, and other journals. Buff is a history professor at the University of Wisconsin–Milwaukee, where she directs the Cultures and Communities program.

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A River Sings | 01 21 21 | Jade Yeung

Jade Yeung
I Consider Blocking My Mom Until the Presidential Inauguration

WeChat Message / December 19, 2020 / Brooklyn, NY

[#]
Daughter daughter I worry about you.1

[#]
You need to stock up the house.2 Water. You need to buy water. You need to buy more food.3 These coming days. Now until January. I’m worried there won’t be water or electricity or internet. [in english] No wifi. No water, no internet. You need to stock up. They won’t let us leave the house. Don’t worry about me—I’m all stocked up. It’s you I’m worried about.4

[#]
Daughter I’m being serious. You need to stock up on food, any food.5 You haven’t seen what I’ve seen. A long time ago we had nothing. It caused a lot of problems. Much trouble.6 As long as you have food that’s all that matters. As long as a human being has food, they can thrive. Do you know what I’m saying?7 You’re still so young. I’ve seen it. I’ve seen it.

[#]
There’ll be shortages.8 You won’t be able to leave the house or people will come to your house. America will have a lot of problems now until late January. Do you know what I’m saying, daughter?9

WeChat Message / December 19, 2020 / Jersey City, NJ

[#]
Okay, mah. I’m okay.10

WeChat Message / January 13, 2021 / Brooklyn, NY

[#]
Daughter daughter, remember to buy more water and food and candles.11 Candles, the things you light. I’m scared we won’t have electricity. You need to get cash. Cash at home so you can buy food. There won’t be internet. The machines won’t work. Credit cards won’t work. So keep cash at home. Buy water. By the gallons.12

[#]
These next few days they won’t let us go outside.13Daughter don’t leave the house. I’ve stocked a lot here. I was worried you wouldn’t know what to buy. [laughs] You’re so far. You wouldn’t be able to walk over here if you needed to. Anyway. There will be nothing to eat.14 If there’s no electricity the trains won’t even run.15 You

[now in english] take care—goodnigh’

  1. No one will say the estimated death toll for the Great Famine. Maybe 30. Maybe 55. Million. This body remembers even when archives lie.
  2. Long Live the Great Leap Forward ! Everybody, Make Steel !
  3. An estimated 100 million peasants were pulled out of agricultural work and placed into steel production.
  4. Things I’ve purged: siblings, masturbation, men.
  5. They said, “Capable women can make a meal without food.” Even rhetoric demands to have its feet rubbed.
  6. “The difficult period,” the state’s euphemism for the famine.
  7. Mom uses a word I don’t understand but sounds like 商城, which I badly translate on g**gle to “quotient city.” As in my body needs food so that I can figure out the number of cities contained in me.
  8. Example monthly ration: 19 lbs of rice, 3.5 oz of cooking oil, and 3.5 oz of meat (maybe).
  9. Reminders of scarcity: ziplock bags, glass jars with the labels soaked off.
  10. During the famine, a farmer claimed that he grew cabbages weighing over 500 lbs each. We make fantasies for each other. We think the past isn’t watching.
  11. The last time we didn’t have electricity was in the blackout of 2003. I remember the candles, the family milling around. The crappy Good Charlotte album on repeat. Brother Cop didn’t touch me that day like he did every other day. And he didn’t ask me to touch him.
  12. Why does a “better life” always mean running water?
  13. When I realized that playing with toys and playing with our bodies was not the same game, it was too late. I didn’t want to play anymore. I wanted to go home. But I was already home.
  14. Things I’ve purged: fig newtons, cheeseburgers, doritos.
  15. Some days I skipped school and slept in Riverside Park. When I sobered up I’d wander the seven miles down to Union Square. I had just enough absences to graduate.

—Submitted on

Jade Yeung is pursuing an MFA at Rutgers-Newark, where she is a Trustees Fellow. Raised in Brooklyn, New York, Yeung is the child of Toishanese immigrants.

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A River Sings | 01 20 21 | Sandra Shagat

Sandra Shagat
Empty Saddle Trail

I take you on a path I’ve found to
show you the peacocks that strut wild
on Strawberry Lane, introduce you to horses,
so many horses—young horses, old
horses with sunken spines,
small horses, tall horses, big
horses with bellies as thick as steer,
white horses, Palominos, one you christen
Black Beauty, of course, Chestnuts,
a brown and white Paint.
I lay it all out for you like God—
like a picnic—acres of backyards that end at stables,
fill your nose with green hay and horse shit
and horse sweat. I lead you through
the rolling hills where there are no houses
to be seen. In the dark gullies,
the temperature drops 10 degrees—you agree
you can feel it. The only plane overhead
is a low-flying one from Louis Zamperini Field.
The strangers we meet along the way are pleasant
as people are who live in white homes and
venture outside on a sunny day between the holidays
to pull the trash bins back in.
Outside a house under renovation,
a man leans alone against a pick-up truck.
I’m sure it’s his family we saw earlier—
we passed them on the trail—
maskless kids who ran down the hill counting horses
their own hair tossing like manes.
So, we’re all doing the same thing:
passing through a life we can’t afford.
You work it out aloud as we walk:
how much it would cost to pay a mortgage plus
taxes here, how much to keep a horse.
Near the end, we find a row of citrus
along a split-rail fence and
let our daughter scamper like a baby
ape for fallen fruit. She rises from the dry
streambed with six lemons and three Mandarins.
You decide you’d rather have a boat.

—Submitted on 01/19/2021 to the erstwhile Poems in the Afterglow series

Sandra Shagat holds a BA in English from Cornell University, and an MA in modern thought and literature from Stanford. Raised in a small town on the Jersey Shore, Shagat lives with her family in the suburban South Bay of Los Angeles, where she works in corporate communications.

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