NaPoWriMo Poem 3 ± April 3, 2017

James Casey
Pills and Bills

Pills and bills, currency for sanity.
ECT and cups of tea
Electro-Darjeeling if you please
Tantrums of thumping and vibrating
My sister twirls her hair with OCD abandon;
When can I throw her switch?

Digital pixel-pusher by trade
My oeuvre exists in electric circuits
Twisted representations that wind up
lining bird cages!

And dreams are dreams
whether shocked or shilled.
Poverty of emotion from the chemical warfare
in my brain.

Some day, in a manic bliss
I will go to Paul Stuart:
“I’ll have 12 of those—no cuffs please—pleats please!
Peridot and periwinkle pinpoint oxfords.
Cashmere and argyle with herringbone and tweed.”
Haberdasher for the great crash,
When the zenith breaks
And the valley looms
And everyone pulls back and disappears.

And there is no God on the road to Dibrapore
But at a wedding I went to He seemed to reappear.
Love declared over wine and dancing, who wouldn’t join in?
Love is hard to find while tending the flames of loneliness.
Caged by the fire and burned to the quick.

 

James Casey writes: I studied Literature and Communications at Benedictine University back in the late 1970s and it indulged my love of reading and exploring the writing process. I love poetry that reaches deep into the soul and explores the ironies and struggles of life. I also am a film-o-phile who loves Alfred Hitchcock and Ingmar Bergman movies. I spend a lot of time watching Turner Classic Movies and following the classics. I share my apartment with my cat, Sophia, who is a loving tonic to life.

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Here is today’s prompt

(optional as always)

Write a poem about getting tested for HIV in 2017. For some information that might help your poetic process on this topic, check out this page on HIV testing.

NaPoWriMo Poem 2 ± April 2, 2017

Scott Chalupa
Big Roy

How many queens had to help you
overturn and burn that cop cruiser
on the second day of riots? I assumed

you just made it up, and so I never thought
to ask any of those nights when you held court
in the receiving room at Houston’s

Pacifica affiliate. The show was After Hours,
Queer radio with attitude, and you
had shade in spades. You were proof

gay men could live past fifty—some miracle.
You’d prance around the conference table,
rub your Retrovir belly while you recalled

your Stonewall ho-strolling twenties,
then moon over the time you were eight,
having just seen Dino, when you announced

from the back seat of your father’s rattling Ford
that you were going to marry Sal Mineo.
It seems all I do these days is write

about the dead, and I haven’t yet figured how
to write you back into existence. I wish
I’d thought to ask how many girly boys it takes

to set police blue ablaze. I imagine
the cruiser rocking on its crushed roof,
fire pageant-waving from each tire,

you edging the wreckage, Sal on your arm.

 

Scott Chalupa haunts a marginal attic in Columbia, SC, where he is finishing an MFA at the University of South Carolina. He is winner of the inaugural Graduate Student Creative Writing Award in poetry from the South Atlantic MLA. His work has appeared or is forthcoming in South Atlantic Review, Tupelo Quarterly, tap literary magazine, Jasper, Oxford Comma Review, and other venues.

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Here is today’s prompt

(optional as always)

Write a poem about being at risk for HIV infection in 2017. For some information that might help your poetic process on this topic, check out this page on who is at risk for HIV.

NaPoWriMo Poem 1 ± April 1, 2017

Michael Mackin O’Mara
Dreams in Black & White

Ton souvenir en moi luit comme un ostensoir!
— Charles Baudelaire

My friend, You are dying. Not like the rest of us who think we are
dying every day. Each day the warden walks You through a
darkened hall. Each evening, in stark shadow, the reverend father
Mea Culpas, while the sweep hand of the large white faced clock
lurches, second by second, as it does in every film-noir. Through
each sedated night, You wait.

You wait.

There’s a mob at your door. They clamor like passbook holders in
a Pottersville bank run. They wish to cash in your promises, and it’s
the 80s all over again and your room’s gone retro & tighter than
Studio and since we can’t pass the doorman’s velvet rope we find
ourselves in extended imaginary conversations

where each moment, real or dreamt, is dissected, re-edited
frame by frame, replayed forward and back like a time-lapsed
sunrise.

All around You, as they wake to the moment, are lost in rerun
expectations of every Doctor Gillespie who ever glared intently at
a test tube raised between thumb and forefinger while from
across his forehead beads of perspiration tick, tick, tick like a
relentless clock. They corner your doctor till his god mask
shatters. They create hopes for a new doctor with his god intact.

—the door opens, the door opens again, I lock it,
in the dark, from these dreams, I startle to the soft
click of a door again opening, I see colors I think I
shouldn’t see, the red fabric of the wall, purple dark,
each sun, moon, and star of the printed cloth glows
golden,

for more than a moment I am afraid until
Welcome, I say aloud,

sleep reclaims me as the room
fades to everyday night.

In this dream You’ve become the priest reciting the last rites, in a
gold lined pouch next to Your heart You hold the last Eucharist; in
a crucible, the blessed oils, with Your thumb You smudge the sign
of salvation across my brow. In this dream we weave a tale of
spirit souls swimming a violet sky. In this dream, when You say
You are ready, I whisper: Take me with You.

And, for a time, it seems You do.

 

Michael Mackin O’Mara lives and works in West Palm Beach, Florida. He is the managing editor of the South Florida Poetry Journal.

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Here is today’s prompt (optional as always):

Write a poem about being at risk for HIV infection in 2017. For some information that might help your poetic process on this topic, check out this page on who is at risk for HIV.

National HIV Poetry Writing Month

Here’s what you get when you Google “national poetry month hiv aids 2017”
Missing: hiv aids

That’s right. HIV and AIDS are literally, virtually, digitally, really and truly missing from the celebrations of poetry going on this National Poetry Month 2017.

I’ve been wondering what Indolent Books and our fiscal parent, Indolent Arts Foundation, Inc., a 501(c)(3) charity, could do for National Poetry Month that was different from what everyone else was doing. SHAME ON ME  for not thinking sooner of our own HIV HERE AND NOW PROJECT.

THIS is where we need to focus our efforts for National Poetry Month 2017 and it’s many poem-a-day-for-30-days projects…

…all inspired by my dear friend Maureen Thorson, the founder of NaPoWriMo, (National Poetry WRITING Month) an annual project in which poets attempt to write a poem a day for the month of April.

So here’s the deal. Anybody who wants can write an HIV/AIDS poem for NaPoWriMo and submit it via our Submittable site. We will post one of those poems each day of April. Today, April 1, is going to be a challenge, because it’s already 6:48 pm EDT…but I know this will all work out in the end…it always has, it always does, it always will.

Since we can only post one poem per day on HH&N, we encourage you to post your own poems elsewhere—on your social media feeds, Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Tumblr, your blog.

In addition, we will be including a DAILY PROMPT along with each day’s poem. You do not have to use the prompt, but you are welcome to if if will help you write. WE REPEAT: To quote Maureen Thorson, the doyenne of NaPoWriMo, “The prompts we post each day are totally optional. Use ‘em if you like ‘em; ignore ‘em if you don’t.”

Here is today’s prompt:

Write about a person who died of AIDS who meant a lot to you. The person can be a well known public figure or someone in your own personal life. Anyone.

For inspiration, you might look at the following poems from the HIV Here & Now project archives

D. Gilson, “Triolet for Uncle Dennis”
Jeffery Berg, “Anthony,”
Daniel Nester, “Four poems from God Save My Queen II”

And that’s it. We are hereby participating in NaPoWriMo.

Poem 31 ± World AIDS Day 2016

Jason S. Price
can i love said he

can i love said he
(of course said he
always said he)
forever said he

(can i love said he
how long said he
always said he)
okay then said he

(come on said he
i’m coming said he
it’s wide said he
oh no said he)

how come said he
(stay then said he
but they said he
don’t worry said he

it hurts said he
love does said he)
but i’m willing said he
(i’m dying said he

me too said he
that’s life said he
so true said he)
i love you said he

(beat this said he
i will said he)
we will said he
(this is love said he

i know said he)
believe it said he
i love you said he
(can i love said he)

 

logoJason S. Price was born and raised in Belize. He is a graduate from the City University of New York Baccalaureate Program, and The City College, CUNY. He holds degrees in English, English Literature, and History. Jason is a poet, fiction writer, blogger, teacher, mentor, and friend. He has published several books of poetry, a collection of short-stories, and a novel. Currently, he resides in New York City.

 

Poem 30 ± November 30, 2016

EDITOR’S NOTE: This poem is posted in preformatted mode to preserve the lineation and spacing. You may need to use the horizontal scroll to read the ends of lines. It’s worth it.

Michael J. Wilson
+

You have AIDS

			have AIDS

			What if you	
				could be purified 		in fire
set from the feather of a phoenix
						#beautiful #epic #YOLO

	Aider, why aider why –


The ad on Craigslist has the face of a famous actor superimposed on the naked torso
of Colby Keller
					the ad says 6’1”blk/bl175lb8.5thickuc	the ad
says	piss	blood	PnP 420 poppers must travel you host no fats no fems	white 
only –	
						Have + need –

	The ad says no bs				the ad says pic or no response

					whow stop touch –
		

					Hand under shirt – to the piercing – in my nipple

			There is that moment when the world seems to spin out of 
control – when you could back out pant up + go out – into the cold –
	the moment before fucking
					before too late to think about –
		

have AIDS have
	whow stop touch,	aider whow –

						All our sexual life we have been afraid
of getting having gotten had had having
		because	that is what happens
			ask anyone –

						At the door to the building you pause
	take in the button you are about to press		imagine – the scent –
afterwards –
		on your fingers –

logoMichael J. Wilson‘s first collection of poetry, A Child of Storm, is out now from Stalking Horse Press. He is an adjunct in the Creative Writing & Literature department at Santa Fe University of Art & Design in Santa Fe, New Mexico.

Poem 29 ± November 29, 2016

Logan February
No Homo

We do not exist until they are bored. You can sit in the shadows, maybe eat an apple, maybe read a book, maybe not – you are in the shadows, after all. But when they need entertainment, your throne is carved from the same wood as the cutting board. You bare your teeth and they teach you that there are hyena packs big enough to make a lion swallow its roar.

They say if you fuck a boy, you will die of AIDS, probably while serving prison time. They laugh and their unison sounds like fourteen fourteen fourteen years in prison. You can hear the blood rushing in their veins, feel their youth, feel their hate, and it is almost as thick as your silence.

Hate is not about logic. It has never been about logic, so you let them talk, and you say nothing, but you know what you know. You know that condoms exist, that medicine exists. That boys who fuck girls get AIDS too, in exactly the same way, and this is Africa anyway, we have so much AIDS it’s probably on the walls, so maybe we are all faggots. Just maybe. In this paradox where it is a strange madness for two boys to kiss, maybe we’re all a little bit gay. They can deny until the sun sighs and falls asleep, but they cannot say no homo to the gay porn statistics, because, if we’re being honest, it looks a lot like yes homo. But hate is not about honesty either.

Even though you do not speak, you cry out to them with your eyes. You tell the hyenas it is alright to wipe the bigotry off their fangs, it’s alright to put it all down, this deception of self, enough hiding to last them fourteen years, it is okay for a boy-hyena to want another boy-hyena. Love is not the problem in a world with wars and disappearance, a world with global warming, a world with AIDS.
AIDS is not about sexuality and hate is not about logic and I promise you: condoms will not stop existing.

 

logoLogan February is Nigerian and a teenager. He likes words and pizza.

Poem 28 ± November 28, 2016

Julene Tripp Weaver
Green Witch with AIDS

I walk with my toes afire
I am not safe within my walls
I shoulder many dark secrets
I am not a cavity
I am as deep as the ocean
I am not female song
I am an ethereal being
I am not just partner to a man
I am full unto myself
I am not a female
I’m a planet
I am not a slut
I’m a sacred virgin goddess whore
I am not a stupid girl
I’m a wise witch
I am not a diamond in the rough
I’m a rainbow over the sky
I am not a crazy loon
I am Cassandra singing

 

Julene_T_Weaver_author_photoJulene Tripp Weaver is a psychotherapist in Seattle, Washington. Her third poetry book, Truth Be Bold—Serenading Life & Death in the Age of AIDS, is in presales now at Finishing Line Press. Two prior books are No Father Can Save Her and Case Walking: An AIDS Case Manager Wails Her Blues. Her poems can be found online at Anti-Heroin Chic, Riverbabble, River & South Review, The Seattle Review of Books, The Unprecedented Review, and a creative nonfiction piece is published by Yellow Chair Press, In The Words of Womyn International: 2016 Anthology. Find more of her work at julenetrippweaver.com.

This poem appeared in The Unprecedented Review.

Poem 27 ± November 27, 2016

Stephen J. Williams
Fentham

What can the dancer say,
moving with his arms that way,
And with those legs and hips, that we,
In our dumb bodies, say with tongue and lips?

He says that in the movement of my being,
this breath, this life, “I am.” —And no one,
even he who soon might take me,
may be the dance I am.

 

Bruce Fentham died of AIDS in 1993. He was a dancer in Melbourne. Near death and unable to walk, his last performance was as the hood ornament of the car that led the 1993 Fringe Festival parade. See The Age 25 October 1992 (page 7), and 8 September 1993 (page 15).

 

Portrait of Stephen J. Williams (detail) by Margaret Gold

Portrait of Stephen J. Williams (detail) by Margaret Gold

Stephen J. Williams lives in St Kilda (Victoria, Australia) and has published writing and images in many literary magazines and newspapers. He has been the recipient of the University of Melbourne’s John Masefield Prize, the Fellowship of Australian Writers’ Anne Elder Prize and John Shaw Neilson Prize, and the Association for Australian Literature’s Mary Gilmore Award.

Poem 26 ± November 26, 2016

Aidan Forster
Wood/Water Body

One night I slipped from the house.
I could not see my own body

but I felt like more than a body.
I was reflective. I called

every creature to me
and bade them drink my waters.

I scattered with the creatures
and took shelter in a man’s truck.

The man had a beard. The truck
smelled like vanilla and sweat.

He bade me consider the night,
the distance. He placed two wooden

discs over my eyes. From my body
he made a church, a worship to fill it.

He moved through me
like an eidolon. The man lived

inside his parents’ garage. He was
a carpenter. His floor was littered

with wooden figures. He took me
to his bedroom and left

to carve a chair, came back
and revealed to me its sleek figure

which he offered to my body.
And I named the chair Bearded Man.

I sat on Bearded Man and received
its maker. And what have I learned?

How man makes from wood
what he desires and gives his creations

to whom he desires. How to divide
the beasts and the sheets in search

of their cool centers. How to receive
a man like a clump of earth

thrown over me. He has named
my body Wooden Artifice, Water Body.

 

aidan-forsterAidan Forster is a junior in the creative writing program at the South Carolina Governor’s School for the Arts and Humanities. He is the blog editor of The Adroit Journal and the co-founder/editor-in-chief of Fissure, an online magazine for LGBT+ and allied writers and artists. He is the 2016 recipient of the Louise Louis/Emily F. Bourne Student Poetry Award from the Poetry Society of America, and has received national recognition from the Scholastic Art & Writing Awards. He work appears in The Adroit Journal, Assaracus, DIALOGIST, Tinderbox, Two Peach, and Verse, among others.